The next morning I pretended to be asleep as tommy left for work, a  few hours later I found myself still on the couch crying. not knowing if I was the one hurting or if it was my pride. I could not figure out why mothers day weekend 08 had he stayed with someone I know or were they going to be strangers to me. Either way I knew some of the pain came from wounded pride, the other part of me hated to see tommy go but I knew in my heart we could no longer be together. That evening when tommy came home he wanted to talk again I stood my ground. and asked him if it would be ok if we did not discuss the matter any more because I did not care to relive the past.

After about a week of trying to talk to me I finally said "what ever you have to say to me please put it in a letter and I will read it". After allowing myself a week of self pity I was able to get back to work. I thought we may not be specking to each other but we had developed a routine of living with each other without having to live with each other. Tommy wanted to retire at the age of 50 his first wife spent all the money he made picking up hot checks she wrote per tommy.

I have been self employed for almost my whole working life. Once Ricky taught me how to read and write he encouraged me to go to real estate school. I called and they said I did not have to have a ged or a high school diploma so the next day I was setting in class getting a headache from trying to catch up in a world full of knowledge that I want to consume. Tommy he considered himself just a dumb old country boy. He use to tell me that all he ever had to worry about was catching the ball. Shirley his first wife did his homework for him and tommy star player for Silsbee High School. Well financing I understood and I knew if tommy wanted to retire at the age of 50 30.00 an hour was not going to get it at the age of 42. When tommy and I got to gather I had already closed down my shop and was managing a set of storage units for Roger Beard, we agreed I would work for him for a year and i would build the business up and then if he wanted to sell then he would give me first option to buy. He agreed and we shook hands. I started managing the units in 1998 or 99 tommy and I did not meet again until mid 2000.

I closed down shop and started conducting business out of my home. The only thing I continued to sell from the shop was the minerals ( I believe in nutrition ) the units more book work than anything but people would still come to my home to make payments or sign storage contracts.

Tommy and I lived at my home in Lumberton Texas for about 5 years and during that time I witnessed the comradery between tommy the cops, dps, sheriffs department, local pd it did not matter even the judges of this county were long time friends with tommy jasper. One time Lumberton pd pulled me over for not having tags the cop asked me why my tags were expired I told him because my husband had not replaced them yet. he asked me who my husband was I told him tommy jasper the cop looked at my license and said tommy jasper but your last name is dougia i said yes sir tommy refused to take my last name so he kept his and I kept mine. The cop wrote me a ticket and said if tommy jasper is really your husband tell him to call me and I will drop the ticket. That made me mad I looked at that cop and said if you are going to drop the ticket drop it now not because my husband calls you, I believe in what is right not the buddy system. when I got home I gave tommy the ticket he called they laugh about the whole thing--------ticket was dropped. Tommy gets off the phone and said all taken care off he just wanted to make sure you were my wife. I look at tommy and said next time we will pay the ticket. tommy said why you are with me now you get certain privileges---you are in the click now. I said no I am not in your click I stand with john doe public and you can tell your buddy if he is not going to do it for all he should not be doing it for one. Forest with Lumberton pd would put his lights on to pull us over so he could ask tommy some thing or shoot the breeze----when Forest would see tommy open container better known as a Miller Long Neck Forrest would say damn it tommy get out of here with that. When we pulled away I said tommy you should have went to jail for that. Tommy said no other people go to jail for that not me that is why I do not like to leave hardin county---I can commit murder in this county and never spend one day in jail that is the benefits of being in the click. I told tommy he could shove his click it was not right for some peoples lives to be ruined by cops and others untouched. The law are for everybody and just because you do them favors dose not mean you should get away with breaking the laws---that is too double slandered for me.

When Adams girlfriend was in front of the non-honorable judge Brett Plunk the judge sent his stenographers husband to our home on the creek to find out how he should rule. ( Adam Is one of Tommy's sons. ) Tommy told the guy he hated to see a child taken away from the mother but she was not a very good mother but it was the only mother the boy had. Nothing really changed for her all she had before court was visitation and that was about what she had when she left court that day. I had been to Brett Plunks properties many times before with tommy. The judge acquired a piece of property why out in the woods across from the Texas forestry service so tommy and I took some lights out to his property in the bucket truck so he could put them up for his friend and buddy the Judge Brett Plunk. Thinking back now I wonder was I so against the click of hardin county that I failed to see the power of corruption or is it corruption of power. Everyone in Hardin county loves tommy jasper and he is a pretty good ole boy it is his friends in the click that makes him a bad person. As a child growing up here I had always heard the storys about the sheriffs department and how corrupt they were. Sometimes you heard stories about how the sheriffs and deputies would kill a person and frame someone else for the crime. people dying in jail being beat up and how you have to stay in jail either because you need to heal or because they forget to release you for months and I heard about one person being kept a year after his release date. Rumors to some but an air in the county just the same. No one spoke of what we knew deep in our hearts to be true in fear that the rumors were indeed true. People go missing all the time tommy told me one time and when you are the ones who investigate the crime do you really think they are going to go arrest themselves. Tommy said I would rather be friends with them than enemies with them and you need to think about that. I told tommy my forefathers did not fight and die so goons could run America. Sorry I fight for freedom not OPPRESSION and not from no low life sheriff or judge. Tommy replied maybe it is a good thing--I know as long as you feel you are right you will fight to the bitter end and the click you tell their secrets and you don't get out alive me I am to far in I would never get out alive. Better you don't know nothing.

When Kristy White called to tell me that tommy had just left the real estate office and he had told her that he had just taken my name off our joint account and was headed to Russell Wrights office to file for a divorce I should not have surprised me, but it did. I had expected truth and honesty from a man that had the morals of the click. I later come to expect no less from him.

For years tommy had asked me to marry him but I would not. I was and still am a very independent person getting married was not in any of my plans. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him but something inside of me said he had a lot of growing up to do. As time went on and I became more at ease being with him I started thinking about all the great things we could accomplish together. So we set a wedding date but instead of getting married on that day we had to tell everyone that one wild ass women broke us up----hurricane Katrina hit New Orleans, all utilities were down and crews from everywhere was headed that way. I know think god was trying to tell me something. because we set another date but we miss that one too. that wild women's name was hurricane Rita. She took out our whole infrastructure, it took months to recover from the damage. Out of all the devastation god had spared us. the creek property had 5 acres of down timber, the mobile home was barely damaged, the storage buildings maybe 3,000.00 to fix the property in the river bottom about 20 acres downed timber, my home in lumberton patio cover messed up fence damaged by the neighbors tree and a limb barely made a hole in the roof. I was lucky one of my girl friends lost her whole house she had to live in her garage for months. We all lived without electricity food and water for weeks.